In Mrs. Peniston's youth, fashion had returned to town in October; therefore
on the tenth day of the month the blinds of her Fifth Avenue residence were
drawn up, and the eyes of the Dying Gladiator in bronze who occupied the
drawing-room window resumed their survey of that deserted thoroughfare.
The first two weeks after her return represented to Mrs. Peniston the
domestic equivalent of a religious retreat. She "went through" the linen and
blankets in the precise spirit of the penitent exploring the inner folds of
conscience; she sought for moths as the stricken soul seeks for lurking
infirmities. The topmost shelf of every closet was made to yield up its secret,
cellar and coal-bin were probed to their darkest depths and, as a final stage in
the lustral rites, the entire house was swathed in penitential white and deluged
with expiatory soapsuds.
It was on this phase of the proceedings that Miss Bart entered on the
afternoon of her return from the Van Osburgh wedding. The journey back to town
had not been calculated to soothe her nerves. Though Evie Van Osburgh's
engagement was still officially a secret, it was one of which the innumerable
intimate friends of the family were already possessed; and the trainful of
returning guests buzzed with allusions and anticipations. Lily was acutely aware
of her own part in this drama of innuendo: she knew the exact quality of the
amusement the situation evoked. The crude forms in which her friends took their
pleasure included a loud enjoyment of such complications: the zest of surprising
destiny in the act of playing a practical joke. Lily knew well enough how to
bear herself in difficult situations. She had, to a shade, the exact manner
between victory and defeat: every insinuation was shed without an effort by the
bright indifference of her manner. But she was beginning to feel the strain of
the attitude; the reaction was more rapid, and she lapsed to a deeper
self-disgust.
As was always the case with her, this moral repulsion found a physical outlet
in a quickened distaste for her surroundings. She revolted from the complacent
ugliness of Mrs. Peniston's black walnut, from the slippery gloss of the
vestibule tiles, and the mingled odour of sapolio and furniture-polish that met
her at the door.
The stairs were still carpetless, and on the way up to her room she was
arrested on the landing by an encroaching tide of soapsuds. Gathering up her
skirts, she drew aside with an impatient gesture; and as she did so she had the
odd sensation of having already found herself in the same situation but in
different surroundings. It seemed to her that she was again descending the
staircase from Selden's rooms; and looking down to remonstrate with the
dispenser of the soapy flood, she found herself met by a lifted stare which had
once before confronted her under similar circumstances. It was the char-woman of
the Benedick who, resting on crimson elbows, examined her with the same
unflinching curiosity, the same apparent reluctance to let her pass. On this
occasion, however, Miss Bart was on her own ground.
"Don't you see that I wish to go by? Please move your pail," she said
sharply.
The woman at first seemed not to hear; then, without a word of excuse, she
pushed back her pail and dragged a wet floor-cloth across the landing, keeping
her eyes fixed on Lily while the latter swept by. It was insufferable that Mrs.
Peniston should have such creatures about the house; and Lily entered her room
resolved that the woman should be dismissed that evening.
Mrs. Peniston, however, was at the moment inaccessible to remonstrance: since
early morning she had been shut up with her maid, going over her furs, a process
which formed the culminating episode in the drama of household renovation. In
the evening also Lily found herself alone, for her aunt, who rarely dined out,
had responded to the summons of a Van Alstyne cousin who was passing through
town. The house, in its state of unnatural immaculateness and order, was as
dreary as a tomb, and as Lily, turning from her brief repast between shrouded
sideboards, wandered into the newly-uncovered glare of the drawing-room she felt
as though she were buried alive in the stifling limits of Mrs. Peniston's
existence.
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