"Now please do as I tell you," he hissed at his wife. "Don't let's have a
scene, please."
She descended, slowly, weeping. And Mr. Povey retired again to the place of
execution.
Amy nearly fell on the top of Constance with a final tray of things from the
drawing-room. And Constance had to tell the girl that Cyril was found. Somehow
she could not resist the instinct to tell her also that the master had the
affair in hand. Amy then wept.
After about an hour Mr. Povey at last reappeared. Constance was trying to
count silver teaspoons in the parlour.
"He's in bed now," said Mr. Povey, with a magnificent attempt to be
nonchalant. "You mustn't go near him."
"I've punished him, of course," said Mr. Povey, like a god who is above human
weaknesses. "What did you expect me to do? Someone had to do it."
Constance wiped her eyes with the edge of the white apron which she was
wearing over her new silk dress. She surrendered; she accepted the situation;
she made the best of it. And all the evening was spent in dismally and horribly
pretending that their hearts were beating as one. Mr. Povey's elaborate, cheery
kindliness was extremely painful.
They went to bed, and in their bedroom Constance, as she stood close to
Samuel, suddenly dropped the pretence, and with eyes and voice of anguish
said:
They faced each other. For a brief instant Cyril did not exist for Constance.
Samuel alone obsessed her, and yet Samuel seemed a strange, unknown man. It was
in Constance's life one of those crises when the human soul seems to be on the
very brink of mysterious and disconcerting cognitions, and then, the wave
recedes as inexplicably as it surged up.
"Why, of course!" said Mr. Povey, turning away lightly, as though to imply
that she was making tragedies out of nothing.
Constance could not sleep. As she lay darkly awake by her husband, her secret
being seemed to be a-quiver with emotion. Not exactly sorrow; not exactly joy;
an emotion more elemental than these! A sensation of the intensity of her life
in that hour; troubling, anxious, yet not sad! She said that Samuel was quite
right, quite right. And then she said that the poor little thing wasn't yet five
years old, and that it was monstrous. The two had to be reconciled. And they
never could be reconciled. Always she would be between them, to reconcile them,
and to be crushed by their impact. Always she would have to bear the burden of
both of them. There could be no ease for her, no surcease from a tremendous
preoccupation and responsibility. She could not change Samuel; besides, he was
right! And though Cyril was not yet five, she felt that she could not change
Cyril either. He was just as unchangeable as a growing plant. The thought of her
mother and Sophia did not present itself to her; she felt, however, somewhat as
Mrs. Baines had felt on historic occasions; but, being more softly kind,
younger, and less chafed by destiny, she was conscious of no bitterness,
conscious rather of a solemn blessedness.
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