Kate Vavasor had sent to her brother only the first half of her cousin’s
letter, that half in which Alice had attempted to describe what had taken place
between her and Mr Grey. In doing this, Kate had been a wicked traitor — a
traitor to that feminine faith against which treason on the part of one woman is
always unpardonable in the eyes of other women. But her treason would have been
of a deeper dye had she sent the latter portion, for in that Alice had spoken of
George Vavasor himself. But even of this treason, Kate would, I think, have been
guilty, had the words which Alice wrote been of a nature to serve her own
purpose if read by her brother. But they had not been of this nature. They had
spoken of George as a man with whom any closer connection than that which
existed at present was impossible, and had been written with the view of begging
Kate to desist from making futile attempts in that direction. “I feel myself
driven”, Alice had said, “to write all this, as otherwise — if I were simply to
tell you that I have resolved to part from Mr Grey — you would think that the
other thing might follow. The other thing cannot follow. I should think myself
untrue in my friendship to you if I did not tell you about Mr Grey; and you will
be untrue in your friendship to me if you take advantage of my confidence by
saying more about your brother.” This part of Alice’s letter Kate had not sent
to George Vavasor — “But the other thing shall follow,” Kate had said, as she
read the words for the second time, and then put the papers into her desk. “It
shall follow.”
To give Kate Vavasor her due, she was, at any rate, unselfish in her
intrigues. She was obstinately persistent, and she was moreover unscrupulous,
but she was not selfish. Many years ago she had made up her mind that George and
Alice should be man and wife, feeling that such a marriage would be good at any
rate for her brother. It had been almost brought about, and had then been
hindered altogether through a fault on her brother’s part. But she had forgiven
him this sin as she had forgiven many others, and she was now at work in his
behalf again, determined that they two should be married, even though neither of
them might be now anxious that it should be so. The intrigue itself was dear to
her, and success in it was necessary to her self-respect.
She answered Alice’s letter with a pleasant, gossiping epistle which shall be
recorded, as it will tell us something of Mrs Greenow’s proceedings at Yarmouth.
Kate had promised to stay at Yarmouth for a month, but she had already been
there six weeks, and was still under her aunt’s wing.
Yarmouth, October, 186-.
DEAREST ALICE,
Of course I am delighted. It is no good saying that I am not. I know how
difficult it is to deal with you, and therefore I sit down to answer your letter
with fear and trembling, lest I should say a word too much, and thereby drive
you back, or not say quite enough and thereby fail to encourage you on. Of
course I am glad. I have long thought that Mr Grey could not make you happy, and
as I have thought so, how can I not be glad? It is no use saying that he is good
and noble, and all that sort of thing. I have never denied it. But he was not
suited to you, and his life would have made you wretched. Ergo, I rejoice. And
as you are the dearest friend I have, of course I rejoice mightily.
I can understand accurately the sort of way in which the interview went. Of
course he had the best of it. I can see him so plainly as he stood up in
unruffled self-possession, ignoring all that you said, suggesting that you were
feverish or perhaps bilious, waving his hand over you a little, as though that
might possibly do you some small good, and then taking his leave with an
assurance that it would be all right as soon as the wind changed. I suppose it’s
very noble in him, not taking you at your word, and giving you, as it were,
another chance; but there is a kind of nobility which is almost too great for
this world. I think very well of you, my dear, as women go, but I do not think
well enough of you to believe that you are fit to be Mr John Grey’s wife.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Friday, November 23, 2012
And nobody can say that of me
“No, my friend, no,” Mrs Greenow said to Mr Cheesacre when that gentleman
endeavoured to persuade her to stand up; “Kate will be delighted I am sure to
join you — but as, for me, you must excuse me.”
But Mr Cheesacre was not inclined at that moment to ask Kate Vavasor to dance with him. He was possessed by an undefined idea that Kate had snubbed him, and as Kate’s fortune was, as he said, literally nothing, he was not at all disposed to court her favour at the expense of such suffering to himself.
“I’m not quite sure that I’ll dance myself,” said he, seating himself in a corner of the tent by Mrs Greenow’s side. Captain Bellfield at that moment was seen leading Miss Vavasor away to a new place on the sands, whither he was followed by a score of dancers; and Mr Cheesacre saw that now at last he might reap the reward for which he had laboured. He was alone with the widow, and having been made bold by wine, had an opportunity of fighting his battle, than which none better could ever be found. He was himself by no means a poor man, and he despised poverty in others. It was well that there should be poor gentry, in order that they might act as satellites to those who, like himself, had money. As to Mrs Greenow’s money, there was no doubt. He knew it all to a fraction. She had spread for herself, or someone else had spread for her, a report that her wealth was almost unlimited; but the forty thousand pounds was a fact, and any such innocent fault as that little fiction might well be forgiven to a woman endorsed with such substantial virtues. And she was handsome too. Mr Cheesacre, as he regarded her matured charms, sometimes felt that he should have been smitten even without the forty thousand pounds. “By George! there’s flesh and blood,” he had once said to his friend Bellfield before he had begun to suspect the man’s treachery. His admiration must then have been sincere, for at that time the forty thousand pounds was not an ascertained fact. Looking at the matter in all its bearings Mr Cheesacre thought that he couldn’t do better. His wooing should be fair, honest, and above-board. He was a thriving man, and what might not they two do in Norfolk if they put their wealth together?
“Oh, Mr Cheesacre, you should join them,” said Mrs Greenow; “they’ll not half enjoy themselves without you. Kate will think that you mean to neglect her.”
“I shan’t dance, Mrs Greenow, unless you like to stand up for a set.”
“No, my friend, no; I shall not do that. I fear you forget how recent has been my bereavement. Your asking me is the bitterest reproach to me for having ventured to join your festive board.”
“And nobody can say that of me. There isn’t a man or woman in Norfolk that wouldn’t say I was manly.”
“Well; perhaps I’m extravagant. But it’s only in these kind of things you know, when I spend a little money for the sake of making my friends happy. When I’m about, on the lands at home, I ain’t extravagant, I can tell you.”
“No; indeed I would not. I am not given to joking when any one that I regard speaks to me seriously.”
“Ain’t you though? I’m so glad of that. When one has really got a serious thing to say, one doesn’t like to have fun poked at one.”
“And, besides, how could I laugh at marriage, seeing how happy I have been in that condition? — so — very — happy,” and Mrs Greenow put up her handkerchief to her eyes.
“So happy that you’ll try it again some day; won’t you?”
“Never, Mr Cheesacre; never. Is that the way you talk of serious things without joking? Anything like love — love of that sort — is over for me. It lies buried under the sod with my poor dear departed saint.”
“But, Mrs Greenow,” — and Cheesacre, as he prepared to argue the question with her, got nearer to her in the corner behind the table — “But, Mrs Greenow, care killed a cat, you know.”
“You’re very kind, Mr Cheesacre; but there’s no preventing such care as mine.”
But Mr Cheesacre was not inclined at that moment to ask Kate Vavasor to dance with him. He was possessed by an undefined idea that Kate had snubbed him, and as Kate’s fortune was, as he said, literally nothing, he was not at all disposed to court her favour at the expense of such suffering to himself.
“I’m not quite sure that I’ll dance myself,” said he, seating himself in a corner of the tent by Mrs Greenow’s side. Captain Bellfield at that moment was seen leading Miss Vavasor away to a new place on the sands, whither he was followed by a score of dancers; and Mr Cheesacre saw that now at last he might reap the reward for which he had laboured. He was alone with the widow, and having been made bold by wine, had an opportunity of fighting his battle, than which none better could ever be found. He was himself by no means a poor man, and he despised poverty in others. It was well that there should be poor gentry, in order that they might act as satellites to those who, like himself, had money. As to Mrs Greenow’s money, there was no doubt. He knew it all to a fraction. She had spread for herself, or someone else had spread for her, a report that her wealth was almost unlimited; but the forty thousand pounds was a fact, and any such innocent fault as that little fiction might well be forgiven to a woman endorsed with such substantial virtues. And she was handsome too. Mr Cheesacre, as he regarded her matured charms, sometimes felt that he should have been smitten even without the forty thousand pounds. “By George! there’s flesh and blood,” he had once said to his friend Bellfield before he had begun to suspect the man’s treachery. His admiration must then have been sincere, for at that time the forty thousand pounds was not an ascertained fact. Looking at the matter in all its bearings Mr Cheesacre thought that he couldn’t do better. His wooing should be fair, honest, and above-board. He was a thriving man, and what might not they two do in Norfolk if they put their wealth together?
“Oh, Mr Cheesacre, you should join them,” said Mrs Greenow; “they’ll not half enjoy themselves without you. Kate will think that you mean to neglect her.”
“I shan’t dance, Mrs Greenow, unless you like to stand up for a set.”
“No, my friend, no; I shall not do that. I fear you forget how recent has been my bereavement. Your asking me is the bitterest reproach to me for having ventured to join your festive board.”
“And nobody can say that of me. There isn’t a man or woman in Norfolk that wouldn’t say I was manly.”
“Well; perhaps I’m extravagant. But it’s only in these kind of things you know, when I spend a little money for the sake of making my friends happy. When I’m about, on the lands at home, I ain’t extravagant, I can tell you.”
“No; indeed I would not. I am not given to joking when any one that I regard speaks to me seriously.”
“Ain’t you though? I’m so glad of that. When one has really got a serious thing to say, one doesn’t like to have fun poked at one.”
“And, besides, how could I laugh at marriage, seeing how happy I have been in that condition? — so — very — happy,” and Mrs Greenow put up her handkerchief to her eyes.
“So happy that you’ll try it again some day; won’t you?”
“Never, Mr Cheesacre; never. Is that the way you talk of serious things without joking? Anything like love — love of that sort — is over for me. It lies buried under the sod with my poor dear departed saint.”
“But, Mrs Greenow,” — and Cheesacre, as he prepared to argue the question with her, got nearer to her in the corner behind the table — “But, Mrs Greenow, care killed a cat, you know.”
“You’re very kind, Mr Cheesacre; but there’s no preventing such care as mine.”
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
sometimes you drive me too hard
“Kate,” said Alice, angrily, “I think you are about the most unjust person I
ever met. I would forgive your raillery, however painful it might be, if it were
only fair.”
“Then it must have been unfair to Mr Grey.”
“Yes; it was Mr Grey whom you meant to attack. If I can forgive him for not caring for society, surely you might do so.”
“Exactly; but that’s just what you can’t do, my dear. You don’t forgive him. If you did you might be quite sure that I should say nothing. And if you choose to bid me hold my tongue I will say nothing. But when you tell me all your own thoughts about this thing you can hardly expect but what I should let you know mine in return. I’m not particular; and if you are ready for a little good, wholesome, useful hypocrisy, I won’t balk you. I mayn’t be quite so dishonest as you call me, but I’m not so wedded to truth but what I can look, and act, and speak a few falsehoods if you wish it. Only let us understand each other.”
“You know I wish for no falsehood, Kate.”
“I know it’s very hard to understand what you do wish. I know that for the last year or two I have been trying to find out your wishes, and, upon my word, my success has been very indifferent. I suppose you wish to marry Mr Grey, but I’m by no means certain. I suppose the last thing on earth you’d wish would be to marry George.”
“The very last. You’re right there at any rate.”
“Alice —! sometimes you drive me too hard; you do, indeed. You make me doubt whether I hate or love you most. Knowing what my feelings are about George, I cannot understand how you can bring yourself to speak of him to me with such contempt!” Kate Vavasor, as she spoke these words, left the room with a quick step, and hurried up to her own chamber. There Alice found her in tears, and was driven by her friend’s real grief into the expression of an apology, which she knew was not properly due from her. Kate was acquainted with all the circumstances of that old affair between her brother and Alice. She had given in her adhesion to the propriety of what Alice had done. She had allowed that her brother George’s behaviour had been such as to make any engagement between them impossible. The fault, therefore, had been hers in making any reference to the question of such a marriage. Nor had it been by any means her first fault of the same kind. Till Alice had become engaged to Mr Grey she had spoken of George only as her brother, or as her friend’s cousin, but now she was constantly making allusion to those past occurrences, which all of them should have striven to forget. Under these circumstances was not Lady Macleod right in saying that George Vavasor should not have been accepted as a companion for the Swiss tour?
The little dinner-party went off very quietly; and if no other ground existed for charging Mr Grey with London dissipation than what that afforded, he was accused most unjustly. The two young men had never before met each other; and Vavasor had gone to his uncle’s house, prepared not only to dislike but to despise his successor in Alice’s favour. But in this he was either disappointed or gratified, as the case may be. “He has plenty to say for himself,” he said to Kate on his way home.
“Oh yes; he can talk.”
“And he doesn’t talk like a prig either, which was what I expected. He’s uncommonly handsome.”
“I thought men never saw that in each other. I never see it in any man.”
“I see it in every animal — in men, women, horses, dogs, and even pigs. I like to look on handsome things. I think people always do who are ugly themselves.”
“And so you’re going into raptures in favour of John Grey.”
“Then it must have been unfair to Mr Grey.”
“Yes; it was Mr Grey whom you meant to attack. If I can forgive him for not caring for society, surely you might do so.”
“Exactly; but that’s just what you can’t do, my dear. You don’t forgive him. If you did you might be quite sure that I should say nothing. And if you choose to bid me hold my tongue I will say nothing. But when you tell me all your own thoughts about this thing you can hardly expect but what I should let you know mine in return. I’m not particular; and if you are ready for a little good, wholesome, useful hypocrisy, I won’t balk you. I mayn’t be quite so dishonest as you call me, but I’m not so wedded to truth but what I can look, and act, and speak a few falsehoods if you wish it. Only let us understand each other.”
“You know I wish for no falsehood, Kate.”
“I know it’s very hard to understand what you do wish. I know that for the last year or two I have been trying to find out your wishes, and, upon my word, my success has been very indifferent. I suppose you wish to marry Mr Grey, but I’m by no means certain. I suppose the last thing on earth you’d wish would be to marry George.”
“The very last. You’re right there at any rate.”
“Alice —! sometimes you drive me too hard; you do, indeed. You make me doubt whether I hate or love you most. Knowing what my feelings are about George, I cannot understand how you can bring yourself to speak of him to me with such contempt!” Kate Vavasor, as she spoke these words, left the room with a quick step, and hurried up to her own chamber. There Alice found her in tears, and was driven by her friend’s real grief into the expression of an apology, which she knew was not properly due from her. Kate was acquainted with all the circumstances of that old affair between her brother and Alice. She had given in her adhesion to the propriety of what Alice had done. She had allowed that her brother George’s behaviour had been such as to make any engagement between them impossible. The fault, therefore, had been hers in making any reference to the question of such a marriage. Nor had it been by any means her first fault of the same kind. Till Alice had become engaged to Mr Grey she had spoken of George only as her brother, or as her friend’s cousin, but now she was constantly making allusion to those past occurrences, which all of them should have striven to forget. Under these circumstances was not Lady Macleod right in saying that George Vavasor should not have been accepted as a companion for the Swiss tour?
The little dinner-party went off very quietly; and if no other ground existed for charging Mr Grey with London dissipation than what that afforded, he was accused most unjustly. The two young men had never before met each other; and Vavasor had gone to his uncle’s house, prepared not only to dislike but to despise his successor in Alice’s favour. But in this he was either disappointed or gratified, as the case may be. “He has plenty to say for himself,” he said to Kate on his way home.
“Oh yes; he can talk.”
“And he doesn’t talk like a prig either, which was what I expected. He’s uncommonly handsome.”
“I thought men never saw that in each other. I never see it in any man.”
“I see it in every animal — in men, women, horses, dogs, and even pigs. I like to look on handsome things. I think people always do who are ugly themselves.”
“And so you’re going into raptures in favour of John Grey.”
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
She did not like it that Jasper should shoot birds
These two she would have liked to keep for ever just as they were,demons of
wickedness, angels of delight, never to see them grow up intolong-legged
monsters. Nothing made up up for the loss. When she readjust now to James, "and
there were numbers of soldiers with kettledrumsand trumpets," and his eyes
darkened, she thought, why should theygrow up and lose all that? He was the most
gifted, the most sensitive ofher children. But all, she thought, were full of
promise. Prue, a perfectangel with the others, and sometimes now, at night
especially, she tookone's breath away with her beauty. Andrew—even her husband
admittedthat his gift for mathematics was extraordinary. And Nancy and
Roger,they were both wild creatures now, scampering about over thecountry all
day long. As for Rose, her mouth was too big, but she had awonderful gift with
her hands. If they had charades, Rose made thedresses; made everything; liked
best arranging tables, flowers, anything.
She did not like it that Jasper should shoot birds; but it was only a stage;they all went through stages. Why, she asked, pressing her chin onJames's head, should they grow up so fast? Why should they go toschool? She would have liked always to have had a baby. She was happiestcarrying one in her arms. Then people might say she was tyrannical,domineering, masterful, if they chose; she did not mind. And, touchinghis hair with her lips, she thought, he will never be so happy again, butstopped herself, remembering how it angered her husband that sheshould say that. Still, it was true. They were happier now than theywould ever be again. A tenpenny tea set made Cam happy for days. Sheheard them stamping and crowing on the floor above her head the momentthey awoke. They came bustling along the passage. Then the doorsprang open and in they came, fresh as roses, staring, wide awake, as ifthis coming into the dining-room after breakfast, which they did everyday of their lives, was a positive event to them, and so on, with one thingafter another, all day long, until she went up to say good-night to them,and found them netted in their cots like birds among cherries and raspberries,still making up stories about some little bit of rubbish—something they had heard, something they had picked up in thegarden. They all had their little treasures… And so she went down andsaid to her husband, Why must they grow up and lose it all? Never willthey be so happy again. And he was angry. Why take such a gloomyview of life? he said. It is not sensible. For it was odd; and she believed it to be true; that with all his gloom and desperation he was happier, morehopeful on the whole, than she was. Less exposed to human worries—perhaps that was it. He had always his work to fall back on. Notthat she herself was "pessimistic," as he accused her of being. Only shethought life—and a little strip of time presented itself to her eyes—herfifty years. There it was before her—life. Life, she thought—but she didnot finish her thought. She took a look at life, for she had a clear sense ofit there, something real, something private, which she shared neitherwith her children nor with her husband. A sort of transaction went onbetween them, in which she was on one side, and life was on another,and she was always trying to get the better of it, as it was of her; andsometimes they parleyed (when she sat alone); there were, she remembered,great reconciliation scenes; but for the most part, oddlyenough, she must admit that she felt this thing that she called life terrible,hostile, and quick to pounce on you if you gave it a chance. Therewere eternal problems: suffering; death; the poor. There was always awoman dying of cancer even here. And yet she had said to all these children,You shall go through it all. To eight people she had said relentlesslythat (and the bill for the greenhouse would be fifty pounds). Forthat reason, knowing what was before them—love and ambition and beingwretched alone in dreary places—she had often the feeling, Whymust they grow up and lose it all? And then she said to herself, brandishingher sword at life, Nonsense. They will be perfectly happy. Andhere she was, she reflected, feeling life rather sinister again, makingMinta marry Paul Rayley; because whatever she might feel about herown transaction, she had had experiences which need not happen toevery one (she did not name them to herself); she was driven on, tooquickly she knew, almost as if it were an escape for her too, to say thatpeople must marry; people must have children.
Was she wrong in this, she asked herself, reviewing her conduct forthe past week or two, and wondering if she had indeed put any pressureupon Minta, who was only twenty-four, to make up her mind. She wasuneasy. Had she not laughed about it? Was she not forgetting again howstrongly she influenced people? Marriage needed—oh, all sorts of qualities(the bill for the greenhouse would be fifty pounds); one—she neednot name it—that was essential; the thing she had with her husband.
Had they that?
She did not like it that Jasper should shoot birds; but it was only a stage;they all went through stages. Why, she asked, pressing her chin onJames's head, should they grow up so fast? Why should they go toschool? She would have liked always to have had a baby. She was happiestcarrying one in her arms. Then people might say she was tyrannical,domineering, masterful, if they chose; she did not mind. And, touchinghis hair with her lips, she thought, he will never be so happy again, butstopped herself, remembering how it angered her husband that sheshould say that. Still, it was true. They were happier now than theywould ever be again. A tenpenny tea set made Cam happy for days. Sheheard them stamping and crowing on the floor above her head the momentthey awoke. They came bustling along the passage. Then the doorsprang open and in they came, fresh as roses, staring, wide awake, as ifthis coming into the dining-room after breakfast, which they did everyday of their lives, was a positive event to them, and so on, with one thingafter another, all day long, until she went up to say good-night to them,and found them netted in their cots like birds among cherries and raspberries,still making up stories about some little bit of rubbish—something they had heard, something they had picked up in thegarden. They all had their little treasures… And so she went down andsaid to her husband, Why must they grow up and lose it all? Never willthey be so happy again. And he was angry. Why take such a gloomyview of life? he said. It is not sensible. For it was odd; and she believed it to be true; that with all his gloom and desperation he was happier, morehopeful on the whole, than she was. Less exposed to human worries—perhaps that was it. He had always his work to fall back on. Notthat she herself was "pessimistic," as he accused her of being. Only shethought life—and a little strip of time presented itself to her eyes—herfifty years. There it was before her—life. Life, she thought—but she didnot finish her thought. She took a look at life, for she had a clear sense ofit there, something real, something private, which she shared neitherwith her children nor with her husband. A sort of transaction went onbetween them, in which she was on one side, and life was on another,and she was always trying to get the better of it, as it was of her; andsometimes they parleyed (when she sat alone); there were, she remembered,great reconciliation scenes; but for the most part, oddlyenough, she must admit that she felt this thing that she called life terrible,hostile, and quick to pounce on you if you gave it a chance. Therewere eternal problems: suffering; death; the poor. There was always awoman dying of cancer even here. And yet she had said to all these children,You shall go through it all. To eight people she had said relentlesslythat (and the bill for the greenhouse would be fifty pounds). Forthat reason, knowing what was before them—love and ambition and beingwretched alone in dreary places—she had often the feeling, Whymust they grow up and lose it all? And then she said to herself, brandishingher sword at life, Nonsense. They will be perfectly happy. Andhere she was, she reflected, feeling life rather sinister again, makingMinta marry Paul Rayley; because whatever she might feel about herown transaction, she had had experiences which need not happen toevery one (she did not name them to herself); she was driven on, tooquickly she knew, almost as if it were an escape for her too, to say thatpeople must marry; people must have children.
Was she wrong in this, she asked herself, reviewing her conduct forthe past week or two, and wondering if she had indeed put any pressureupon Minta, who was only twenty-four, to make up her mind. She wasuneasy. Had she not laughed about it? Was she not forgetting again howstrongly she influenced people? Marriage needed—oh, all sorts of qualities(the bill for the greenhouse would be fifty pounds); one—she neednot name it—that was essential; the thing she had with her husband.
Had they that?
Monday, November 19, 2012
To faire valoir the family acres had always
Still, even these conditions were not permanent, and the discipline of the
last years had trained Undine to wait and dissemble. The summer over, it was
decided--after a protracted family conclave--that the state of the old
Marquise's health made it advisable for her to spend the winter with the married
daughter who lived near Pau. The other members of the family returned to their
respective estates, and Undine once more found herself alone with her husband.
But she knew by this time that there was to be no thought of Paris that winter,
or even the next spring. Worse still, she was presently to discover that
Raymond's accession of rank brought with it no financial advantages.
Having but the vaguest notion of French testamentary law, she was dismayed to learn that the compulsory division of property made it impossible for a father to benefit his eldest son at the expense of the others. Raymond was therefore little richer than before, and with the debts of honour of a troublesome younger brother to settle, and Saint Desert to keep up, his available income was actually reduced. He held out, indeed, the hope of eventual improvement, since the old Marquis had managed his estates with a lofty contempt for modern methods, and the application of new principles of agriculture and forestry were certain to yield profitable results. But for a year or two, at any rate, this very change of treatment would necessitate the owner's continual supervision, and would not in the meanwhile produce any increase of income.
To faire valoir the family acres had always, it appeared, been Raymond's deepest-seated purpose, and all his frivolities dropped from him with the prospect of putting his hand to the plough. He was not, indeed, inhuman enough to condemn his wife to perpetual exile. He meant, he assured her, that she should have her annual spring visit to Paris--but he stared in dismay at her suggestion that they should take possession of the coveted premier of the Hotel de Chelles. He was gallant enough to express the wish that it were in his power to house her on such a scale; but he could not conceal his surprise that she had ever seriously expected it. She was beginning to see that he felt her constitutional inability to understand anything about money as the deepest difference between them. It was a proficiency no one had ever expected her to acquire, and the lack of which she had even been encouraged to regard as a grace and to use as a pretext. During the interval between her divorce and her remarriage she had learned what things cost, but not how to do without them; and money still seemed to her like some mysterious and uncertain stream which occasionally vanished underground but was sure to bubble up again at one's feet. Now, however, she found herself in a world where it represented not the means of individual gratification but the substance binding together whole groups of interests, and where the uses to which it might be put in twenty years were considered before the reasons for spending it on the spot. At first she was sure she could laugh Raymond out of his prudence or coax him round to her point of view. She did not understand how a man so romantically in love could be so unpersuadable on certain points. Hitherto she had had to contend with personal moods, now she was arguing against a policy; and she was gradually to learn that it was as natural to Raymond de Chelles to adore her and resist her as it had been to Ralph Marvell to adore her and let her have her way. At first, indeed, he appealed to her good sense, using arguments evidently drawn from accumulations of hereditary experience. But his economic plea was as unintelligible to her as the silly problems about pen-knives and apples in the "Mental Arithmetic" of her infancy; and when he struck a tenderer note and spoke of the duty of providing for the son he hoped for, she put her arms about him to whisper: "But then I oughtn't to be worried..."
After that, she noticed, though he was as charming as ever, he behaved as if the case were closed. He had apparently decided that his arguments were unintelligible to her, and under all his ardour she felt the difference made by the discovery. It did not make him less kind, but it evidently made her less important; and she had the half-frightened sense that the day she ceased to please him she would cease to exist for him. That day was a long way off, of course, but the chill of it had brushed her face; and she was no longer heedless of such signs. She resolved to cultivate all the arts of patience and compliance, and habit might have helped them to take root if they had not been nipped by a new cataclysm.
Having but the vaguest notion of French testamentary law, she was dismayed to learn that the compulsory division of property made it impossible for a father to benefit his eldest son at the expense of the others. Raymond was therefore little richer than before, and with the debts of honour of a troublesome younger brother to settle, and Saint Desert to keep up, his available income was actually reduced. He held out, indeed, the hope of eventual improvement, since the old Marquis had managed his estates with a lofty contempt for modern methods, and the application of new principles of agriculture and forestry were certain to yield profitable results. But for a year or two, at any rate, this very change of treatment would necessitate the owner's continual supervision, and would not in the meanwhile produce any increase of income.
To faire valoir the family acres had always, it appeared, been Raymond's deepest-seated purpose, and all his frivolities dropped from him with the prospect of putting his hand to the plough. He was not, indeed, inhuman enough to condemn his wife to perpetual exile. He meant, he assured her, that she should have her annual spring visit to Paris--but he stared in dismay at her suggestion that they should take possession of the coveted premier of the Hotel de Chelles. He was gallant enough to express the wish that it were in his power to house her on such a scale; but he could not conceal his surprise that she had ever seriously expected it. She was beginning to see that he felt her constitutional inability to understand anything about money as the deepest difference between them. It was a proficiency no one had ever expected her to acquire, and the lack of which she had even been encouraged to regard as a grace and to use as a pretext. During the interval between her divorce and her remarriage she had learned what things cost, but not how to do without them; and money still seemed to her like some mysterious and uncertain stream which occasionally vanished underground but was sure to bubble up again at one's feet. Now, however, she found herself in a world where it represented not the means of individual gratification but the substance binding together whole groups of interests, and where the uses to which it might be put in twenty years were considered before the reasons for spending it on the spot. At first she was sure she could laugh Raymond out of his prudence or coax him round to her point of view. She did not understand how a man so romantically in love could be so unpersuadable on certain points. Hitherto she had had to contend with personal moods, now she was arguing against a policy; and she was gradually to learn that it was as natural to Raymond de Chelles to adore her and resist her as it had been to Ralph Marvell to adore her and let her have her way. At first, indeed, he appealed to her good sense, using arguments evidently drawn from accumulations of hereditary experience. But his economic plea was as unintelligible to her as the silly problems about pen-knives and apples in the "Mental Arithmetic" of her infancy; and when he struck a tenderer note and spoke of the duty of providing for the son he hoped for, she put her arms about him to whisper: "But then I oughtn't to be worried..."
After that, she noticed, though he was as charming as ever, he behaved as if the case were closed. He had apparently decided that his arguments were unintelligible to her, and under all his ardour she felt the difference made by the discovery. It did not make him less kind, but it evidently made her less important; and she had the half-frightened sense that the day she ceased to please him she would cease to exist for him. That day was a long way off, of course, but the chill of it had brushed her face; and she was no longer heedless of such signs. She resolved to cultivate all the arts of patience and compliance, and habit might have helped them to take root if they had not been nipped by a new cataclysm.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Pacifying Geordie was not eas
She continued to sit helplessly beside the hall-table, the tearsrunning
down her cheeks. The appearance of the bonne arousedher. Her youngest charge,
Geordie, had been feverish for a dayor two; he was better, but still confined to
the nursery, and hehad heard Susy unlock the house-door, and could not imagine
whyshe had not come straight up to him. He now began to manifesthis indignation
in a series of racking howls, and Susy, shakenout of her trance, dropped her
cloak and umbrella and hurriedup.
"Oh, that child!" she groaned.
Under the Fulmer roof there was little time or space for theindulgence of private sorrows. From morning till night therewas always some immediate practical demand on one's attention;and Susy was beginning to see how, in contracted households,children may play a part less romantic but not less useful thanthat assigned to them in fiction, through the mere fact ofgiving their parents no leisure to dwell on irremediablegrievances. Though her own apprenticeship to family life hadbeen so short, she had already acquired the knack of rapidmental readjustment, and as she hurried up to the nursery herprivate cares were dispelled by a dozen problems of temperature,diet and medicine.
Such readjustment was of course only momentary; yet each time ithappened it seemed to give her more firmness and flexibility oftemper. "What a child I was myself six months ago!" shethought, wondering that Nick's influence, and the tragedy oftheir parting, should have done less to mature and steady herthan these few weeks in a house full of children.
Pacifying Geordie was not easy, for he had long since learned touse his grievances as a pretext for keeping the offender at hisbeck with a continuous supply of stories, songs and games.
"You'd better be careful never to put yourself in the wrong withGeordie," the astute Junie had warned Susy at the outset,"because he's got such a memory, and he won't make it up withyou till you've told him every fairy-tale he's ever heardbefore."But on this occasion, as soon as he saw her, Geordie'sindignation melted. She was still in the doorway, compunctious,abject and racking her dazed brain for his favourite stories,when she saw, by the smoothing out of his mouth and the suddenserenity of his eyes, that he was going to give her thedelicious but not wholly reassuring shock of being a good boy.
Thoughtfully he examined her face as she knelt down beside thecot; then he poked out a finger and pressed it on her tearfulcheek.
"Poor Susy got a pain too," he said, putting his arms about her;and as she hugged him close, he added philosophically: "TellGeordie a new story, darling, and you'll forget all about it."
"Oh, that child!" she groaned.
Under the Fulmer roof there was little time or space for theindulgence of private sorrows. From morning till night therewas always some immediate practical demand on one's attention;and Susy was beginning to see how, in contracted households,children may play a part less romantic but not less useful thanthat assigned to them in fiction, through the mere fact ofgiving their parents no leisure to dwell on irremediablegrievances. Though her own apprenticeship to family life hadbeen so short, she had already acquired the knack of rapidmental readjustment, and as she hurried up to the nursery herprivate cares were dispelled by a dozen problems of temperature,diet and medicine.
Such readjustment was of course only momentary; yet each time ithappened it seemed to give her more firmness and flexibility oftemper. "What a child I was myself six months ago!" shethought, wondering that Nick's influence, and the tragedy oftheir parting, should have done less to mature and steady herthan these few weeks in a house full of children.
Pacifying Geordie was not easy, for he had long since learned touse his grievances as a pretext for keeping the offender at hisbeck with a continuous supply of stories, songs and games.
"You'd better be careful never to put yourself in the wrong withGeordie," the astute Junie had warned Susy at the outset,"because he's got such a memory, and he won't make it up withyou till you've told him every fairy-tale he's ever heardbefore."But on this occasion, as soon as he saw her, Geordie'sindignation melted. She was still in the doorway, compunctious,abject and racking her dazed brain for his favourite stories,when she saw, by the smoothing out of his mouth and the suddenserenity of his eyes, that he was going to give her thedelicious but not wholly reassuring shock of being a good boy.
Thoughtfully he examined her face as she knelt down beside thecot; then he poked out a finger and pressed it on her tearfulcheek.
"Poor Susy got a pain too," he said, putting his arms about her;and as she hugged him close, he added philosophically: "TellGeordie a new story, darling, and you'll forget all about it."
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
He jumped at her, and she pulled the trigger
Back in the dining-room he cleared the remains of the supper from the table
and went out of the room for a few minutes, returning with a small pad of paper,
and she saw from the delicacy with which he handed each sheet that it was of the
thinnest texture. Between each page he placed a carbon and began to write,
printing the characters. There was only one word on each tiny sheet. When this
was written he detached the leaves, putting them aside and using his watch as a
paper-weight, and wrote another batch.
She watched him, fascinated, until he showed signs that he had completed his task. Then she lifted the little valise which she had at her side, put it on her knees, opened it and took out a book. It must have been instinct which made him raise his eyes to her.
"'A Friend in Need,'" he read. "By Stanford Beale--by Stanford Beale," he repeated, frowning. "I didn't know your husband wrote books?"
She made no reply. He turned back the cover and read the title page.
He turned another page or two, then stopped, for he had come to a place where the centre of the book had been cut right out. The leaves had been glued together to disguise this fact, and what was apparently a book was in reality a small box.
The little hand which held the Browning was firm and did not quiver.
"I don't think you are going to send your pigeons off this morning, doctor," she said. "Stand back from the table." She leant over and seized the little heap of papers and the watch. "I am going to shoot you," she said steadily, "if you refuse to do as I tell you; because if I don't shoot you, you will kill me."
His face had grown old and grey in the space of a few seconds. The white hands he raised were shaking. He tried to speak but only a hoarse murmur came. Then his face went blank. He stared at the pistol, then stretched out his hands slowly toward it.
He jumped at her, and she pulled the trigger, but nothing happened, and the next minute she was struggling in his arms. The man was hysterical with fear and relief and was giggling and cursing in the same breath. He wrenched the pistol from her hand and threw it on the table.
"You fool! You fool!" he shouted, "the safety-catch! You didn't put it down!"
She could have wept with anger and mortification. Beale had put the catch of the weapon at safety, not realizing that she did not understand the mechanism of it, and van Heerden in one lightning glance had seen his advantage.
"Now you suffer!" he said, as he flung her in a chair. "You shall suffer, I tell you! I will make an example of you. I will leave your husband something which he will not touch!"
He was shaking in every limb. He dashed to the door and bellowed "Bridgers!"
"Come, my friend," van Heerden shouted, "you shall have your wish. It is----"
He spun round. There were two men in the doorway, and the first of these was Beale.
"It's no use your shouting for Bridgers because Bridgers is on the way to the jug," said McNorton. "I have a warrant for you, van Heerden."
The doctor turned with a howl of rage, snatched up the pistol which lay on the table, and thumbed down the safety-catch.
Beale and McNorton fired together, so that it seemed like a single shot that thundered through the room. Van Heerden slid forward, and fell sprawling across the table.
It was the Friday morning, and Beale stepped briskly through the vestibule of the Ritz-Carlton, and declining the elevator went up the stairs two at a time. He burst into the room where Kitson and the girl were standing by the window.
"Wheat prices are tumbling down," he said, "the message worked."
"Thank Heaven for that!" said Kitson. "Then van Heerden's code message telling his gang to stop operations reached its destination!"
She watched him, fascinated, until he showed signs that he had completed his task. Then she lifted the little valise which she had at her side, put it on her knees, opened it and took out a book. It must have been instinct which made him raise his eyes to her.
"'A Friend in Need,'" he read. "By Stanford Beale--by Stanford Beale," he repeated, frowning. "I didn't know your husband wrote books?"
She made no reply. He turned back the cover and read the title page.
He turned another page or two, then stopped, for he had come to a place where the centre of the book had been cut right out. The leaves had been glued together to disguise this fact, and what was apparently a book was in reality a small box.
The little hand which held the Browning was firm and did not quiver.
"I don't think you are going to send your pigeons off this morning, doctor," she said. "Stand back from the table." She leant over and seized the little heap of papers and the watch. "I am going to shoot you," she said steadily, "if you refuse to do as I tell you; because if I don't shoot you, you will kill me."
His face had grown old and grey in the space of a few seconds. The white hands he raised were shaking. He tried to speak but only a hoarse murmur came. Then his face went blank. He stared at the pistol, then stretched out his hands slowly toward it.
He jumped at her, and she pulled the trigger, but nothing happened, and the next minute she was struggling in his arms. The man was hysterical with fear and relief and was giggling and cursing in the same breath. He wrenched the pistol from her hand and threw it on the table.
"You fool! You fool!" he shouted, "the safety-catch! You didn't put it down!"
She could have wept with anger and mortification. Beale had put the catch of the weapon at safety, not realizing that she did not understand the mechanism of it, and van Heerden in one lightning glance had seen his advantage.
"Now you suffer!" he said, as he flung her in a chair. "You shall suffer, I tell you! I will make an example of you. I will leave your husband something which he will not touch!"
He was shaking in every limb. He dashed to the door and bellowed "Bridgers!"
"Come, my friend," van Heerden shouted, "you shall have your wish. It is----"
He spun round. There were two men in the doorway, and the first of these was Beale.
"It's no use your shouting for Bridgers because Bridgers is on the way to the jug," said McNorton. "I have a warrant for you, van Heerden."
The doctor turned with a howl of rage, snatched up the pistol which lay on the table, and thumbed down the safety-catch.
Beale and McNorton fired together, so that it seemed like a single shot that thundered through the room. Van Heerden slid forward, and fell sprawling across the table.
It was the Friday morning, and Beale stepped briskly through the vestibule of the Ritz-Carlton, and declining the elevator went up the stairs two at a time. He burst into the room where Kitson and the girl were standing by the window.
"Wheat prices are tumbling down," he said, "the message worked."
"Thank Heaven for that!" said Kitson. "Then van Heerden's code message telling his gang to stop operations reached its destination!"
Monday, November 12, 2012
He shuffled forward into view, a small man with a dead white face
She jumped up and went to the outer office in search of the boy who, she
faintly remembered, had erupted into her presence hours before with a request
which she had granted without properly hearing. He was not in evidence.
Evidently his petition had also been associated with the gnawing pangs which
assail boyhood at one o'clock in the afternoon.
She was turning back to her office, undecided as to whether she should remain until his return or close the office entirely, when the shuffle of feet brought her round.
The outer office was partitioned from the entrance by a long "fence," the farther end of which was hidden by a screen of wood and frosted glass. It was from behind that screen that the noise came and she remembered that she had noted a chair there--evidently a place where callers waited.
"Eggscuse, mattam," said a wheezy voice, "I gall to eng-vire for Mister Peale, isn't it?"
He shuffled forward into view, a small man with a dead white face and a head of monstrous size.
She was bereft of speech and could only look at him, for this was the man she had found in her rooms the night before her dismissal--the man who carried the Green Rust.
"Mister Peale, he tolt me, I must gall him mit der telephone, but der nomber she vas gone oudt of mine head!"
He blinked at her with his short-sighted eyes and laid a big hairy hand on the gate.
"You must--you mustn't come in," she said breathlessly. "I will call Mr. Beale--sit--sit down again."
"Sch," he said obediently, and shuffled back to his chair, "dell him der Herr Brofessor it was."
The girl took up the telephone receiver with a shaking hand and gave the number. It was Beale's voice that answered her.
"There's a man here," she said hurriedly, "a--a--the man--who was in my room--the Herr Professor."
"I'm sorry," and if she could judge by the inflection of his voice his sorrow was genuine. "I'll be with you in ten minutes--he's quite a harmless old gentleman----"
She heard the "click" of his receiver and replaced her own slowly. She did not attempt to go back to the outer office, but waited by the closed door. She recalled the night, the terror of that unknown presence in her darkened flat, and shuddered. Then Beale, surprisingly sober, had come in and he and the "burglar" had gone away together.
What had these two, Mr. Beale and the "Herr Professor," in common? She heard the snap of the outer door
She was turning back to her office, undecided as to whether she should remain until his return or close the office entirely, when the shuffle of feet brought her round.
The outer office was partitioned from the entrance by a long "fence," the farther end of which was hidden by a screen of wood and frosted glass. It was from behind that screen that the noise came and she remembered that she had noted a chair there--evidently a place where callers waited.
"Eggscuse, mattam," said a wheezy voice, "I gall to eng-vire for Mister Peale, isn't it?"
He shuffled forward into view, a small man with a dead white face and a head of monstrous size.
She was bereft of speech and could only look at him, for this was the man she had found in her rooms the night before her dismissal--the man who carried the Green Rust.
"Mister Peale, he tolt me, I must gall him mit der telephone, but der nomber she vas gone oudt of mine head!"
He blinked at her with his short-sighted eyes and laid a big hairy hand on the gate.
"You must--you mustn't come in," she said breathlessly. "I will call Mr. Beale--sit--sit down again."
"Sch," he said obediently, and shuffled back to his chair, "dell him der Herr Brofessor it was."
The girl took up the telephone receiver with a shaking hand and gave the number. It was Beale's voice that answered her.
"There's a man here," she said hurriedly, "a--a--the man--who was in my room--the Herr Professor."
"I'm sorry," and if she could judge by the inflection of his voice his sorrow was genuine. "I'll be with you in ten minutes--he's quite a harmless old gentleman----"
She heard the "click" of his receiver and replaced her own slowly. She did not attempt to go back to the outer office, but waited by the closed door. She recalled the night, the terror of that unknown presence in her darkened flat, and shuddered. Then Beale, surprisingly sober, had come in and he and the "burglar" had gone away together.
What had these two, Mr. Beale and the "Herr Professor," in common? She heard the snap of the outer door
Monday, November 5, 2012
We approached what had been Adelmo’s working place
We approached what had been Adelmo’s working place, where the pages of a richly
illuminated psalter still lay. They were folios of the finest vellum—that queen
among parchments—and the last was still fixed to the desk. Just scraped with
pumice stone and softened with chalk, it had been smoothed with the plane, and,
from the tiny holes made on the sides with a fine stylus, all the lines that
were to have guided the artist’s hand had been traced. The first half had’
already been cov?ered with writing, and the monk had begun to sketch the
illustrations in the margins. The other pages, on the contrary, were already
finished, and as we looked at them, neither I nor William could suppress a cry
of wonder. This was a psalter in whose margins was delin?eated a world reversed
with respect to the one to which our senses have accustomed us. As if at the
border of a discourse that is by definition the discourse of truth, there
proceeded, closely linked to it, through wondrous allusions in aenigmate, a
discourse of falsehood on a topsy-turvy universe, in which dogs flee before the
hare, and deer hunt the lion. Little bird-feet heads,, animals with human hands
on their back, hirsute pates from which feet sprout, zebra-striped dragons,
quadru?peds with serpentine necks twisted in a thousand inex?tricable knots,
monkeys with stags’ horns, sirens in the form of fowl with membranous wins,
armless men with other human bodies emerging from their backs like humps, and
figures with tooth-filled mouths on the belly, humans with horses’ heads, and
horses with hu?man legs, fish with birds’ wings and birds with fishtails,
monsters with single bodies and double heads or single heads and double bodies,
cows with cocks’ tails and butterfly wings, women with heads scaly as a fish’s
back, two-headed chimeras interlaced with dragonflies with lizard snouts,
centaurs, dragons, elephants, manticores stretched out on tree branches,
gryphons whose tails turned into an archer in battle array, diabolical
crea?tures with endless necks, sequences of anthropomor?phic animals and
zoomorphic dwarfs joined, sometimes on the same page, with scenes of rustic life
in which you saw, depicted with such impressive vivacity that the figures seemed
alive, all the life of the fields, plowmen, fruit gatherers, harvesters,
spinning-women, sowers along?side foxes, and martens armed with crossbows who
were scaling the walls of a towered city defended by monkeys. Here an initial
letter, bent into an L, in the lower part generated a dragon; there a great V,
which began the word “verba,” produced as a natural shoot from its trunk a
serpent with a thousand coils, which in turn begot other serpents as leaves and
clusters.
Next to the psalter there was, apparently finished only a short time before, an exquisite book of hours, so incredibly small that it would fit into the palm of the hand. The writing was tiny; the marginal illuminations, barely visible at first sight, demanded that the eye examine them closely to reveal all their beauty (and you asked yourself with what superhuman instrument the artist had drawn them to achieve such vivid effects in a space so reduced). The entire margins of the book were invaded by minuscule forms that generated one another, as if by natural expansion, from the terminal scrolls of the splendidly drawn letters: sea sirens, stags in flight, chimeras, armless human torsos that emerged like slugs from the very body of the verses. At one point, as if to continue the triple “Sanctus, Sanctus, Sanctus” repeat?ed on three different lines, you saw three ferocious figures with human heads, two of which were bent, one downward and one upward, to join in a kiss you would not have hesitated to call immodest if you were not persuaded that a profound, even if not evident, spiritu?al meaning must surely have justified that illustration at that point.
As I followed those pages I was torn between silent admiration and laughter, because the illustrations natu?rally inspired merriment, though they were commenting on holy pages. And Brother William examined them smiling and remarked, “Babewyn: so they are called in my islands.”
“Babouins: that is what they call them in Gaul,” Malachi said. “Adelmo learned his art in your country, although he studied also in France. Baboons, that is to say: monkeys from Africa. Figures of an inverted world, were houses stand on the tip of a steeple and the earth is above the sky.”
I recalled some verses I had heard in the vernacular of my country, and I could not refrain from repeating them:
“Good for you, Adso,” the librarian continued. “In fact, these images tell of that country where you arrive mounted on a blue goose, where hawks are found that catch fish in a stream, bears that pursue falcons in the sky, lobsters that fly with the doves, and three giants are caught in a trap and bitten by a cock.”
And a pale smile brightened his lips. Then the other monks, who had followed the conversation a bit shyly, laughed heartily, as if they had been awaiting the librarian’s consent. He frowned as the others continued laughing, praising the skill of poor Adelmo and pointing out to one another the more fantastic figures. And it was while all were still laughing that we heard, at our backs, a solemn and stern voice.
“Verba vana aut risui apta non loqui.”
We turned. The speaker was a monk bent under the weight of his years, an old man white as snow, not only his skin, but also his face and his pupils. I saw he was blind. The voice was still majestic and the limbs powerful, even if the body was withered by age. He stared at us as if he could see us, and always thereafter I saw him move and speak as if he still possessed the gift of sight. But the tone of his voice was that of one possessing only the gift of prophecy.
“The man whom you see, venerable in age and wisdom,” Malachi said to William, pointing out the newcomer, “is Jorge of Burgos. Older than anyone else living in the monastery save Alinardo of Grottaferrata, he is the one to whom many monks here confide the burden of their sins in the secret of confession.” Then, turning to the old man, he said, “The man standing before you is Brother William of Baskerville, our guest.”
Next to the psalter there was, apparently finished only a short time before, an exquisite book of hours, so incredibly small that it would fit into the palm of the hand. The writing was tiny; the marginal illuminations, barely visible at first sight, demanded that the eye examine them closely to reveal all their beauty (and you asked yourself with what superhuman instrument the artist had drawn them to achieve such vivid effects in a space so reduced). The entire margins of the book were invaded by minuscule forms that generated one another, as if by natural expansion, from the terminal scrolls of the splendidly drawn letters: sea sirens, stags in flight, chimeras, armless human torsos that emerged like slugs from the very body of the verses. At one point, as if to continue the triple “Sanctus, Sanctus, Sanctus” repeat?ed on three different lines, you saw three ferocious figures with human heads, two of which were bent, one downward and one upward, to join in a kiss you would not have hesitated to call immodest if you were not persuaded that a profound, even if not evident, spiritu?al meaning must surely have justified that illustration at that point.
As I followed those pages I was torn between silent admiration and laughter, because the illustrations natu?rally inspired merriment, though they were commenting on holy pages. And Brother William examined them smiling and remarked, “Babewyn: so they are called in my islands.”
“Babouins: that is what they call them in Gaul,” Malachi said. “Adelmo learned his art in your country, although he studied also in France. Baboons, that is to say: monkeys from Africa. Figures of an inverted world, were houses stand on the tip of a steeple and the earth is above the sky.”
I recalled some verses I had heard in the vernacular of my country, and I could not refrain from repeating them:
“Good for you, Adso,” the librarian continued. “In fact, these images tell of that country where you arrive mounted on a blue goose, where hawks are found that catch fish in a stream, bears that pursue falcons in the sky, lobsters that fly with the doves, and three giants are caught in a trap and bitten by a cock.”
And a pale smile brightened his lips. Then the other monks, who had followed the conversation a bit shyly, laughed heartily, as if they had been awaiting the librarian’s consent. He frowned as the others continued laughing, praising the skill of poor Adelmo and pointing out to one another the more fantastic figures. And it was while all were still laughing that we heard, at our backs, a solemn and stern voice.
“Verba vana aut risui apta non loqui.”
We turned. The speaker was a monk bent under the weight of his years, an old man white as snow, not only his skin, but also his face and his pupils. I saw he was blind. The voice was still majestic and the limbs powerful, even if the body was withered by age. He stared at us as if he could see us, and always thereafter I saw him move and speak as if he still possessed the gift of sight. But the tone of his voice was that of one possessing only the gift of prophecy.
“The man whom you see, venerable in age and wisdom,” Malachi said to William, pointing out the newcomer, “is Jorge of Burgos. Older than anyone else living in the monastery save Alinardo of Grottaferrata, he is the one to whom many monks here confide the burden of their sins in the secret of confession.” Then, turning to the old man, he said, “The man standing before you is Brother William of Baskerville, our guest.”
Friday, November 2, 2012
It may he partly jest and partly flattery, but still
'And do you remember how I warned you against letting your heart be stolen
from you by those unworthy of its possession, and fixing your affections where
approbation did not go before, and where reason and judgment withheld their
sanction?'
'Pardon me - and do you remember assuring me that there was no occasion for uneasiness on your account; for you should never be tempted to marry a man who was deficient in sense or principle, however handsome or charming in other respects he might be, for you could not love him; you should hate - despise - pity - anything but love him - were not those your words?'
'And did you not say that your affection must be founded on approbation; and that, unless you could approve and honour and respect, you could not love?'
'Perhaps not, exactly; but it is only for want of thought. If he had some one to advise him, and remind him of what is right - '
'He would soon learn, you think - and you yourself would willingly undertake to be his teacher? But, my dear, he is, I believe, full ten years older than you - how is it that you are so beforehand in moral acquirements?'
'Thanks to you, aunt, I have been well brought up, and had good examples always before me, which he, most likely, has not; and, besides, he is of a sanguine temperament, and a gay, thoughtless temper, and I am naturally inclined to reflection.'
'Well, now you have made him out to be deficient in both sense and principle, by your own confession - '
'That sounds presumptuous, Helen. Do you think you have enough for both; and do you imagine your merry, thoughtless profligate would allow himself to be guided by a young girl like you?'
'No; I should not wish to guide him; but I think I might have influence sufficient to save him from some errors, and I should think my life well spent in the effort to preserve so noble a nature from destruction. He always listens attentively now when I speak seriously to him (and I often venture to reprove his random way of talking), and sometimes he says that if he had me always by his side he should never do or say a wicked thing, and that a little daily talk with me would make him quite a saint. It may he partly jest and partly flattery, but still - '
'If I do think there is any mixture of truth in it, it is not from confidence in my own powers, but in his natural goodness. And you have no right to call him a profligate, aunt; he is nothing of the kind.'
'Who told you so, my dear? What was that story about his intrigue with a married lady - Lady who was it? - Miss Wilmot herself was telling you the other day?'
'I know nothing positive respecting his character. I only know that I have heard nothing definite against it - nothing that could be proved, at least; and till people can prove their slanderous accusations, I will not believe them. And I know this, that if he has committed errors, they are only such as are common to youth, and such as nobody thinks anything about; for I see that everybody likes him, and all the mammas smile upon him, and their daughters - and Miss Wilmot herself - are only too glad to attract his attention.'
'Helen, the world may look upon such offences as venial; a few unprincipled mothers may be anxious to catch a young man of fortune without reference to his character; and thoughtless girls may be glad to win the smiles of so handsome a gentleman, without seeking to penetrate beyond the surface; but you, I trusted, were better informed than to see with their eyes, and judge with their perverted judgment. I did not think you would call these venial errors!'
'Nor do I, aunt; but if I hate the sins, I love the sinner, and would do much for his salvation, even supposing your suspicions to be mainly true, which I do not and will not believe.'
'Well, my dear, ask your uncle what sort of company he keeps, and if he is not banded with a set of loose, profligate young men, whom he calls his friends, his jolly companions, and whose chief delight is to wallow in vice, and vie with each other who can run fastest and furthest down the headlong road to the place prepared for the devil and his angels.'
'I have such confidence in him, aunt, notwithstanding all you say, that I would willingly risk my happiness for the chance of securing his. I will leave better men to those who only consider their own advantage. If he has done amiss, I shall consider my life well spent in saving him from the consequences of his early errors, and striving to recall him to the path of virtue. God grant me success!'
Here the conversation ended, for at this juncture my uncle's voice was heard from his chamber, loudly calling upon my aunt to come to bed. He was in a bad humour that night; for his gout was worse. It had been gradually increasing upon him ever since we came to town; and my aunt took advantage of the circumstance next morning to persuade him to return to the country immediately, without waiting for the close of the season. His physician supported and enforced her arguments; and contrary to her usual habits, she so hurried the preparations for removal (as much for my sake as my uncle's, I think), that in a very few days we departed; and I saw no more of Mr. Huntingdon. My aunt flatters herself I shall soon forget him - perhaps she thinks I have forgotten him already, for I never mention his name; and she may continue to think so, till we meet again - if ever that should be. I wonder if it will?
'Pardon me - and do you remember assuring me that there was no occasion for uneasiness on your account; for you should never be tempted to marry a man who was deficient in sense or principle, however handsome or charming in other respects he might be, for you could not love him; you should hate - despise - pity - anything but love him - were not those your words?'
'And did you not say that your affection must be founded on approbation; and that, unless you could approve and honour and respect, you could not love?'
'Perhaps not, exactly; but it is only for want of thought. If he had some one to advise him, and remind him of what is right - '
'He would soon learn, you think - and you yourself would willingly undertake to be his teacher? But, my dear, he is, I believe, full ten years older than you - how is it that you are so beforehand in moral acquirements?'
'Thanks to you, aunt, I have been well brought up, and had good examples always before me, which he, most likely, has not; and, besides, he is of a sanguine temperament, and a gay, thoughtless temper, and I am naturally inclined to reflection.'
'Well, now you have made him out to be deficient in both sense and principle, by your own confession - '
'That sounds presumptuous, Helen. Do you think you have enough for both; and do you imagine your merry, thoughtless profligate would allow himself to be guided by a young girl like you?'
'No; I should not wish to guide him; but I think I might have influence sufficient to save him from some errors, and I should think my life well spent in the effort to preserve so noble a nature from destruction. He always listens attentively now when I speak seriously to him (and I often venture to reprove his random way of talking), and sometimes he says that if he had me always by his side he should never do or say a wicked thing, and that a little daily talk with me would make him quite a saint. It may he partly jest and partly flattery, but still - '
'If I do think there is any mixture of truth in it, it is not from confidence in my own powers, but in his natural goodness. And you have no right to call him a profligate, aunt; he is nothing of the kind.'
'Who told you so, my dear? What was that story about his intrigue with a married lady - Lady who was it? - Miss Wilmot herself was telling you the other day?'
'I know nothing positive respecting his character. I only know that I have heard nothing definite against it - nothing that could be proved, at least; and till people can prove their slanderous accusations, I will not believe them. And I know this, that if he has committed errors, they are only such as are common to youth, and such as nobody thinks anything about; for I see that everybody likes him, and all the mammas smile upon him, and their daughters - and Miss Wilmot herself - are only too glad to attract his attention.'
'Helen, the world may look upon such offences as venial; a few unprincipled mothers may be anxious to catch a young man of fortune without reference to his character; and thoughtless girls may be glad to win the smiles of so handsome a gentleman, without seeking to penetrate beyond the surface; but you, I trusted, were better informed than to see with their eyes, and judge with their perverted judgment. I did not think you would call these venial errors!'
'Nor do I, aunt; but if I hate the sins, I love the sinner, and would do much for his salvation, even supposing your suspicions to be mainly true, which I do not and will not believe.'
'Well, my dear, ask your uncle what sort of company he keeps, and if he is not banded with a set of loose, profligate young men, whom he calls his friends, his jolly companions, and whose chief delight is to wallow in vice, and vie with each other who can run fastest and furthest down the headlong road to the place prepared for the devil and his angels.'
'I have such confidence in him, aunt, notwithstanding all you say, that I would willingly risk my happiness for the chance of securing his. I will leave better men to those who only consider their own advantage. If he has done amiss, I shall consider my life well spent in saving him from the consequences of his early errors, and striving to recall him to the path of virtue. God grant me success!'
Here the conversation ended, for at this juncture my uncle's voice was heard from his chamber, loudly calling upon my aunt to come to bed. He was in a bad humour that night; for his gout was worse. It had been gradually increasing upon him ever since we came to town; and my aunt took advantage of the circumstance next morning to persuade him to return to the country immediately, without waiting for the close of the season. His physician supported and enforced her arguments; and contrary to her usual habits, she so hurried the preparations for removal (as much for my sake as my uncle's, I think), that in a very few days we departed; and I saw no more of Mr. Huntingdon. My aunt flatters herself I shall soon forget him - perhaps she thinks I have forgotten him already, for I never mention his name; and she may continue to think so, till we meet again - if ever that should be. I wonder if it will?
Working nights and sleeping days and doing things for Billy
“A homebody,” I said.
The word puzzled her.
“He comes home and stays here.”
“Yes, yes, exactly. Watching the flat screen, DVDs, eating—I cook,sometimes. He likes some things…sauerbraten—special veal meat. Spaetzle, it isa kind of noodle. I cook for two, bring it downstairs.” She looked over hershoulder. The room behind her was tidy and bright. White porcelain figurinescrowded the ledge of an arched, tiled mantel.
In the current market, the rent would be three, four thousand a month. Steepon a nurse’s pay.
“You live alone, Ms. Holzer?”
“Yes.”
“You’re from Germany?”
“Lichtenstein.” She pinched thumb to forefinger. “It is a teeny tiny littlecountry between—”
“Austria and Switzerland,” Isaid.
“You know Lichtenstein?”
“I’ve heard it’s pretty. Banking, castles, Alps.”
“It is pretty, yes,” she agreed. “But I like it here better.”
“L.A.’s moreexciting.”
“More to do, the music, the horses, the beach.”
“You ride?”
“Anything with sunshine,” she said.
“Working nights and sleeping days and doing things for Billy.”
“Work is good. Sometimes I do a double shift.”
“What are Billy’s needs?” I said.
“Very easy. If he wants takeout and it is a long time for the restaurant todeliver, I get him his dinner. There is Domino Pizza on Doheny near Olympic.Billy likes Thai food, there’s a nice place on La Cienega and Olympic. Sushi isalso on Olympic. Nice place near Doheny. Very convenient, being near Olympic.”
“Billy’s a gourmet.”
“Billy eats anything,” said Annalise Holzer. “You must really think of himas a boy. A good boy.”
When I was back on Olympic, I celled Milo,expecting voice mail because he was with Armando Vasquez.
“Canceled,” he said. “Vasquez’s D.P.D. had other plans but didn’t bother totell me. The prelim on Michaela’s autopsy finally came in. I woulda been therebut they did it earlier than scheduled. Bottom line is no sign of sexual assault,cause of death was strangulation, the stab wounds on her chest were relativelysuperficial. The neck wound was a puncture, pathologist can’t say what causedit. Get to Billy’s place yet?”
“Just finished with that and you’re going to feel smart. The woman upstairsis a nurse on the night shift at Santa Monica Hospital,meaning she’s gone by ten fifteen or so. Plus, she thinks L.A.’s an exciting city, likes art, thebeach, riding horses. Her tan says she’s out plenty during the day.”
“Not much supervision.”
“On top of that, Peaty came to Billy’s apartment several times. Claimed hewas sent by Brad to return things Billy left at the office. Brad told us hethought Peaty wasn’t licensed to drive. Unless he lied about that, Peatymisrepresented his presence.”
“How many times is several?”
“The woman couldn’t quantify. Or wouldn’t. She said Billy lost his wallet alot. Then she backtracked to ‘a few.’”
“What’s her name?”
“Annalise Holzer. She’s one of those people who gives you lots of detailsand ends up not telling you much. She considers Billy childlike, gracious,absolutely no problem. Some of that could be the rent-break Brad gives her. Thebuilding’s another Dowd property.”
“That so? Not on the BNB list.”
“Maybe the Dowds have another corporation or a holding company that doesn’ttrace back to their names.”
“All that real estate,” he said. “These people have got to be hugely rich,and rich people get protected.”
“Holzer was protective, all right. But I wouldn’t trust her to know thedetails of Billy’s life.”
“Meaning Peaty coulda been a regular at Darling Billy’s. I’ve got to take aserious look at the guy. After I speak to Vasquez’s wife. That’s the change inplans. All of a sudden, I can’t have access to Armando until I talk to themissus.”
“About what?”
“P.D.’s being cryptic. It’ll probably turn out to be a stupid lawyer trickbut the D.A. insists I check it out.”
“D.A.’s office has their own investigators.”
“Whom they pay. That’s why I’m figuring it for scut palmed off on me.”
“Where are you meeting the wife?”
“Right here in my office, half an hour.”
“I’m twenty minutes away.”
The word puzzled her.
“He comes home and stays here.”
“Yes, yes, exactly. Watching the flat screen, DVDs, eating—I cook,sometimes. He likes some things…sauerbraten—special veal meat. Spaetzle, it isa kind of noodle. I cook for two, bring it downstairs.” She looked over hershoulder. The room behind her was tidy and bright. White porcelain figurinescrowded the ledge of an arched, tiled mantel.
In the current market, the rent would be three, four thousand a month. Steepon a nurse’s pay.
“You live alone, Ms. Holzer?”
“Yes.”
“You’re from Germany?”
“Lichtenstein.” She pinched thumb to forefinger. “It is a teeny tiny littlecountry between—”
“Austria and Switzerland,” Isaid.
“You know Lichtenstein?”
“I’ve heard it’s pretty. Banking, castles, Alps.”
“It is pretty, yes,” she agreed. “But I like it here better.”
“L.A.’s moreexciting.”
“More to do, the music, the horses, the beach.”
“You ride?”
“Anything with sunshine,” she said.
“Working nights and sleeping days and doing things for Billy.”
“Work is good. Sometimes I do a double shift.”
“What are Billy’s needs?” I said.
“Very easy. If he wants takeout and it is a long time for the restaurant todeliver, I get him his dinner. There is Domino Pizza on Doheny near Olympic.Billy likes Thai food, there’s a nice place on La Cienega and Olympic. Sushi isalso on Olympic. Nice place near Doheny. Very convenient, being near Olympic.”
“Billy’s a gourmet.”
“Billy eats anything,” said Annalise Holzer. “You must really think of himas a boy. A good boy.”
When I was back on Olympic, I celled Milo,expecting voice mail because he was with Armando Vasquez.
“Canceled,” he said. “Vasquez’s D.P.D. had other plans but didn’t bother totell me. The prelim on Michaela’s autopsy finally came in. I woulda been therebut they did it earlier than scheduled. Bottom line is no sign of sexual assault,cause of death was strangulation, the stab wounds on her chest were relativelysuperficial. The neck wound was a puncture, pathologist can’t say what causedit. Get to Billy’s place yet?”
“Just finished with that and you’re going to feel smart. The woman upstairsis a nurse on the night shift at Santa Monica Hospital,meaning she’s gone by ten fifteen or so. Plus, she thinks L.A.’s an exciting city, likes art, thebeach, riding horses. Her tan says she’s out plenty during the day.”
“Not much supervision.”
“On top of that, Peaty came to Billy’s apartment several times. Claimed hewas sent by Brad to return things Billy left at the office. Brad told us hethought Peaty wasn’t licensed to drive. Unless he lied about that, Peatymisrepresented his presence.”
“How many times is several?”
“The woman couldn’t quantify. Or wouldn’t. She said Billy lost his wallet alot. Then she backtracked to ‘a few.’”
“What’s her name?”
“Annalise Holzer. She’s one of those people who gives you lots of detailsand ends up not telling you much. She considers Billy childlike, gracious,absolutely no problem. Some of that could be the rent-break Brad gives her. Thebuilding’s another Dowd property.”
“That so? Not on the BNB list.”
“Maybe the Dowds have another corporation or a holding company that doesn’ttrace back to their names.”
“All that real estate,” he said. “These people have got to be hugely rich,and rich people get protected.”
“Holzer was protective, all right. But I wouldn’t trust her to know thedetails of Billy’s life.”
“Meaning Peaty coulda been a regular at Darling Billy’s. I’ve got to take aserious look at the guy. After I speak to Vasquez’s wife. That’s the change inplans. All of a sudden, I can’t have access to Armando until I talk to themissus.”
“About what?”
“P.D.’s being cryptic. It’ll probably turn out to be a stupid lawyer trickbut the D.A. insists I check it out.”
“D.A.’s office has their own investigators.”
“Whom they pay. That’s why I’m figuring it for scut palmed off on me.”
“Where are you meeting the wife?”
“Right here in my office, half an hour.”
“I’m twenty minutes away.”
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