'And do you remember how I warned you against letting your heart be stolen
from you by those unworthy of its possession, and fixing your affections where
approbation did not go before, and where reason and judgment withheld their
sanction?'
'Pardon me - and do you remember assuring me that there was no occasion for
uneasiness on your account; for you should never be tempted to marry a man who
was deficient in sense or principle, however handsome or charming in other
respects he might be, for you could not love him; you should hate - despise -
pity - anything but love him - were not those your words?'
'And did you not say that your affection must be founded on approbation; and
that, unless you could approve and honour and respect, you could not love?'
'Perhaps not, exactly; but it is only for want of thought. If he had some one
to advise him, and remind him of what is right - '
'He would soon learn, you think - and you yourself would willingly undertake
to be his teacher? But, my dear, he is, I believe, full ten years older than you
- how is it that you are so beforehand in moral acquirements?'
'Thanks to you, aunt, I have been well brought up, and had good examples
always before me, which he, most likely, has not; and, besides, he is of a
sanguine temperament, and a gay, thoughtless temper, and I am naturally inclined
to reflection.'
'Well, now you have made him out to be deficient in both sense and principle,
by your own confession - '
'That sounds presumptuous, Helen. Do you think you have enough for both; and
do you imagine your merry, thoughtless profligate would allow himself to be
guided by a young girl like you?'
'No; I should not wish to guide him; but I think I might have influence
sufficient to save him from some errors, and I should think my life well spent
in the effort to preserve so noble a nature from destruction. He always listens
attentively now when I speak seriously to him (and I often venture to reprove
his random way of talking), and sometimes he says that if he had me always by
his side he should never do or say a wicked thing, and that a little daily talk
with me would make him quite a saint. It may he partly jest and partly flattery,
but still - '
'If I do think there is any mixture of truth in it, it is not from confidence
in my own powers, but in his natural goodness. And you have no right to call him
a profligate, aunt; he is nothing of the kind.'
'Who told you so, my dear? What was that story about his intrigue with a
married lady - Lady who was it? - Miss Wilmot herself was telling you the other
day?'
'I know nothing positive respecting his character. I only know that I have
heard nothing definite against it - nothing that could be proved, at least; and
till people can prove their slanderous accusations, I will not believe them. And
I know this, that if he has committed errors, they are only such as are common
to youth, and such as nobody thinks anything about; for I see that everybody
likes him, and all the mammas smile upon him, and their daughters - and Miss
Wilmot herself - are only too glad to attract his attention.'
'Helen, the world may look upon such offences as venial; a few unprincipled
mothers may be anxious to catch a young man of fortune without reference to his
character; and thoughtless girls may be glad to win the smiles of so handsome a
gentleman, without seeking to penetrate beyond the surface; but you, I trusted,
were better informed than to see with their eyes, and judge with their perverted
judgment. I did not think you would call these venial errors!'
'Nor do I, aunt; but if I hate the sins, I love the sinner, and would do much
for his salvation, even supposing your suspicions to be mainly true, which I do
not and will not believe.'
'Well, my dear, ask your uncle what sort of company he keeps, and if he is
not banded with a set of loose, profligate young men, whom he calls his friends,
his jolly companions, and whose chief delight is to wallow in vice, and vie with
each other who can run fastest and furthest down the headlong road to the place
prepared for the devil and his angels.'
'I have such confidence in him, aunt, notwithstanding all you say, that I
would willingly risk my happiness for the chance of securing his. I will leave
better men to those who only consider their own advantage. If he has done amiss,
I shall consider my life well spent in saving him from the consequences of his
early errors, and striving to recall him to the path of virtue. God grant me
success!'
Here the conversation ended, for at this juncture my uncle's voice was heard
from his chamber, loudly calling upon my aunt to come to bed. He was in a bad
humour that night; for his gout was worse. It had been gradually increasing upon
him ever since we came to town; and my aunt took advantage of the circumstance
next morning to persuade him to return to the country immediately, without
waiting for the close of the season. His physician supported and enforced her
arguments; and contrary to her usual habits, she so hurried the preparations for
removal (as much for my sake as my uncle's, I think), that in a very few days we
departed; and I saw no more of Mr. Huntingdon. My aunt flatters herself I shall
soon forget him - perhaps she thinks I have forgotten him already, for I never
mention his name; and she may continue to think so, till we meet again - if ever
that should be. I wonder if it will?
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